Today I actually asked one of my girls to get the phone book out so I could look up the school's number and give them a call. What is wrong with me?
My children are clearly unmotivated. I'm uninspired. They are not understanding the material well. And everyone is fighting.
From the wedding, to sickness, to my surgery we are about 8 days behind of schedule and it is overwhelming. I need some time to take my attitude before the LORD and confess what is really going on in my heart. Usually, I can keep it contained, but today it is showing up in my words and actions toward these precious children. Somebody stop me.
When one of them asked me why I was crying I said, "Because I don't think that I do well enough at teaching." Her response? A pat on the back and the most sincere, "You're doing better than last year." Sigh.
I have 20 minutes here to wait in the car during Speech Therapy and I'm thankful for it. I have no doubt that homeschooling is God's best for our family, I just know all too well that I am not the best at it.